I’ve been reading cummings for one of the many papers I have to write, and I just loved this poem. It touches me at this moment in my life.
Things at the kitty front are going better. I can now let Mora and Robin be in the same room without fearing for their lives. They chase after each other and play in that feisty way cats play, and when the game gets too heated I call it off and send Mora back to my room, where she’s now living. Robin sulks a little when I take his play mate away, so I guess he’s finally accepting the idea of having a little sister :).
I’m enjoying this beautiful spring by spending time outside with the kittens, reading and tending the garden. I really love this time of year. And of course, on the weekends I get away to shoot my beloved sunsets. Hope you like the photos 🙂
I’ve had the most amazing couple of days; they definitely made up for my insane, torturous week. My sister is recovering wonderfully both from the birth and the following surgery, my brother in law is on cloud nine, and my niece…she’s the most perfect baby on earth. She’s got these kissable red cheeks, the tinniest, softest hands, and the most beautiful pair of blue eyes I’ve ever seen. Holding her in my arms, feeling her warm body, so trusting, so peaceful, so unpolluted – it changes you. Even jaded me.
My niece is a miracle in so many ways. Her parents have named her Engel, which is German for “angel”, because she’s their little angel. Our little angel. My sister has endometriosis, a very painful disease that makes it almost impossible to get pregnant. All her life she wanted a baby, and when she found this great man who’s by her side in the good and the bad, in health and in sickness, they conceived this perfect little angel we all love so much. This baby has touched all our lives in a special way.
They’re both doing so well they’ll be discharged by tomorrow morning. I was with them two hours after the birth (jetted out of my class, which went great, too), and stayed there for fours hours, which flew by. My sister was glowing, and so happy to have us all there with her. And my niece just slept and ate and she spent about five minutes in the crib because everyone wanted to hold her :).
I’ve been doing so much growing up in the past month that my head’s beginning to spin. And it’s hard to believe that so much happiness can fit into my life. The past three years have been sad and empty, and all of a sudden this year things changed, I changed, our lives changed. I can hardly say how grateful I am for all that is happening. I hope it’s the beginning of something even greater.
I leave you with these shots of the last lovely sunset we had before the ash and the clouds. I haven’t seen the sun in days, but somehow I haven’t really noticed. I wish you all as much happiness as I’m experiencing now :).
I imagined many things that would happen when the semester started. I wouldn’t have so much time to go shooting, I wouldn’t have so much time to practice, surf the web for inspirational pictures, and therefore I wouldn’t learn so much. Summer would end, I wouldn’t find interesting subjects to shoot, or I’d be buried under piles of boring texts that I’d much rather trade for my freedom.
None of this has come true so far. Yes, I’ll probably be buried in texts within a week, but since this is my last year, I can handle everything without losing my sanity or forsaking my life; I’ve had plenty of time to learn how to do it.
Yesterday morning I went out with my camera as far as my backyard, and I found lots of little things to shoot. My favorite was this combination of blooming and fading dandelions. I’ve wanted to shoot dandelion seeds for a while, so I’m really happy.
Again, I can relate to this; I am light and free as the little dandelion seeds. Negativity can’t affect me, because I’m living my dreams every day, and I’ll fly far away from it.
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