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I’ve had the most amazing couple of days; they definitely made up for my insane, torturous week. My sister is recovering wonderfully both from the birth and the following surgery, my brother in law is on cloud nine, and my niece…she’s the most perfect baby on earth. She’s got these kissable red cheeks, the tinniest, softest hands, and the most beautiful pair of blue eyes I’ve ever seen. Holding her in my arms, feeling her warm body, so trusting, so peaceful, so unpolluted – it changes you. Even jaded me.

My niece is a miracle in so many ways. Her parents have named her Engel, which is German for “angel”, because she’s their little angel. Our little angel. My sister has endometriosis, a very painful disease that makes it almost impossible to get pregnant. All her life she wanted a baby, and when she found this great man who’s by her side in the good and the bad, in health and in sickness, they conceived this perfect little angel we all love so much. This baby has touched all our lives in a special way.

They’re both doing so well they’ll be discharged by tomorrow morning. I was with them two hours after the birth (jetted out of my class, which went great, too), and stayed there for fours hours, which flew by. My sister was glowing, and so happy to have us all there with her. And my niece just slept and ate and she spent about five minutes in the crib because everyone wanted to hold her :).

I’ve been doing so much growing up in the past month that my head’s beginning to spin. And it’s hard to believe that so much happiness can fit into my life. The past three years have been sad and empty, and all of a sudden this year things changed, I changed, our lives changed. I can hardly say how grateful I am for all that is happening. I hope it’s the beginning of something even greater.

I leave you with these shots of the last lovely sunset we had before the ash and the clouds. I haven’t seen the sun in days, but somehow I haven’t really noticed. I wish you all as much happiness as I’m experiencing now :).